Here it is 11:00pm. I promised myself I'd be crawled in bed by now. But no. I'm staring at piles and piles of crap. The last couple of years of my life on paper. It's overwhelming. I just want to open up the window, shove it out and hope a good strong wind blows it far away...and with it, all the memory of the sh*t I allowed myself to endure....and pay for. (Yeah, I know that ended with a preposition.) I just wish I'd wised up a little earlier... like almost TEN YEARS AGO???Lessons learned are sometimes hard. Sometimes they stay with you longer than you'd like 'em to. They tug at your purse strings. They keep you from your dreams -- like The Boss said... "One step up and two steps back." I know... that which does not kill us... blah, blah, blah.
All I want to do right now is close my eyes and make a wish that when I wake up in the morning, my office is neatly organized. All these damn bills are GONE. The slate has been cleaned, and the door is wide open... I can start fresh. Where and how I want. I can take a dream job doing what I LOVE to do and not have to worry about how the salary cut will affect me. Oh, the possibilities.
Ouch. Damn paper cut brings me back to reality.
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